Starting to feel it…
Is that stress I’m starting to feel?
Nah, couldn’t be.
I just have a midterm on Friday that I feel less prepared for than any other exam in OTI and NTI combined. I’m trying to get as much studying in as possible before March Madness begins (again, I ask – what kind of professor does such a thing?). I’m not really complaining – I know everyone else is feeling it, too.
On top of that, we’re leading Chapel tomorrow. jbalogna “volunteered” me to sing bass for A Mighty Fortress is our God during the service. I appreciate her affirming what little talent I might have – I really do! It’s just that all of the harmonies to that song are so crazy that I’m still having trouble picking out my part. I know it ultimately won’t matter tomorrow because I’ll be singing with other people. I think it’s a little more intimidating because we’re doing it without accompaniment. I didn’t think I would stress out about it. Now I am. No one will be at the chapel, though. Not even faculty. They have some type of meeting with accreditation people during chapel. I haven’t seen one accreditation person yet – I think it was all just a ploy to give the faculty an excuse for not attending our chapel. Yeah, that’s it!
I think I need tomorrow’s chapel more than I realize.
Christy’s got some type of bug she can’t get rid of. It’s been keeping her up at night. The kids are still getting up at an ungodly time in the morning and refusing to take naps. This leads to cranky kids and even crankier Mommys and Daddys.
The Inlaw is also sick, so she might not be able to watch the kids this weekend. We had to reschedule Asheville from last weekend to this weekend because of sickness (I know, I know – the Madness begins this weekend. It’s not like I haven’t missed the first round games before. Didn’t see any of the games the year Valpo had their big upset. We were busy touring New York City. Besides, kmtodd23 will record the game for me if IU makes it to the second round. I really just want something to complain about regarding the NTI test). Now, it looks like this weekend might be lost, too. If that’s the case, I just give up! We’ll figure out somewhere else to go at some other time…sometime…maybe…if we’re lucky. I’m not really stressed out by this, but it is disappointing. I just want everyone to get better!
I’m really not complaining. I know everyone goes through this. I just feel like I’ve hit a wall – and I wasn’t expecting it at all! I know of others who hit that wall earlier in the semester. I haven’t felt this tempted to drop out in such a long time. I know entertaining those thoughts really wouldn’t help. In fact, it would just make me want to throw more of a pity party – and that’s the exact opposite of what I need to do!
So, like a good little seminarian, I’m going back to the books. Maybe I’ll be able to watch some of the games tomorrow. We’ll see.
I keep getting this feeling that I’ve forgotten to do something or turn something in. It’s scaring me…
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I was really just visiting my vengeance on those who made me lead praise songs last semester. And I knew it would be fine and it was fine.
At the risk of being all religious and stuff… if Jesus died on the cross for you, he isn’t going to let you crash and burn in seminary.
So if I do crash and burn in seminary (which I know I won’t), does that mean he didn’t die for me?
I think the stress is gone. For now. Thanks for the encouragement.